Are You Missing Your Life?
Have you ever really observed yourself and your life? Do you wonder how you got to where you are? Many people are shocked when one day they wake up and 30, 40 or 50 years have gone by and they wonder, what happened to my life?
It's not uncommon to miss life and all the precious moments where nothing is happening apart from the noise in your head. It is the way most people 'live'. Hours, days, weeks and lifetimes can be lost in thoughts of things that are not actually happening apart from in our head. Sounds crazy doesn't it?
How often do you enjoy the act of doing anything? Walking, driving, washing the dishes, cooking? All these actions seem to be a means to an end, and are rushed through as quickly as possible to move on to the next thing, even if the next thing is to sit on the sofa and stare at a tv screen. What's the hurry to get through life? All those moments are life.
Do you notice the birdsong, the aliveness of your body, how your thoughts affect you and make you feel, the beauty of any given moment? Probably not. We all seem to be too busy trying to fix life as if everything that happens is a mistake and 'shouldn't have happened' to me.
When you are caught in the endless cycle of thinking either of the past or future you are missing the stillness and perfection of the moment. We have created an attachment to our thoughts, and subsequently believe them to be true, which then acts to create an image of ourself based on the thoughts we have.
Are your thoughts true? Are they helpful? Do they make you feel good? Or are they a result of the predominant thoughts running your life, and ensuring that you are never at peace?
Take a step back and notice what is actually happening in this moment. Notice the sounds, smells, and things you can see. Move more deeply into your body and notice the sensations that are always there. When you start to do this on a regular basis it is possible to become aware of your thoughts, and it also allows you to become aware that you are not your thoughts, but on a deeper level you are the awareness behind them. You are observing yourself.
The one that is observing is different from the one that is thinking. The one observing is neutral, the one thinking is lost and confused, torn between thoughts that have no answer because to a mind that constantly thinks, there is always an alternative to keep us trapped in the endless cycle of asking more questions.
Perhaps the present moment seems boring because there is usually nothing happening in it, however, the result of missing the present moment is stress, anxiety, depression, a want for more and a deep dissatisfaction of life and self. So I suppose the questions becomes, how much do you want peace and how much are you unconsciously missing it due to self sabotage?
